When I was 14 my parents got divorced. My dad blamed the divorce on me even telling me to my face that it was my fault. Its been 15 years and I cannot seem to get over it or move past it. To complicate things further I have a brother a few years younger than I who our father did not abandon. My brother has always tried to keep his relationship with our father quiet as to not rub it in my face I guess that our dad still talks and interacts with him. But of course that is not always possible to do. There are often times I hear of how our dad took my brother places vacations payed for things etc. I try to hold it in but it does break my heart to hear of these things. I have tried to reach out to my father after I had my first child but my dad did not respond. He simply will not ever talk to me again and he states this fact whenever it is brought up by his friends or family. I have 2 kids now of my own and my brother is about to have his first child. I have no idea how to handle this. Any advice would be welcome